I am a wife and mom and businesswoman who spends most of her time just playing catch up with life. The images that Judy captured showed ME. But not the me that barely keeps her kids in clean clothes... When I look at my images, I see the me that used to travel around the world. The me that does her own thing, and doesn’t care what others think. It’s the me that is still in there somewhere, but on most days I don’t know how to get to her. Seeing myself in my images is giving me courage to look for myself again in my every day life.
When I first saw the pictures, I felt like I looked beautiful. I liked how my eyes came through and they captured me. I don’t like pictures of myself usually. I get too critical and start nit picking everything. I’m not always confident in how I look but when I look at the pictures, I see a beautiful person who’s happy. I see someone who is confident and can let her personality show through and be beautiful, and relaxed. It made me see myself in a different way. I don’t have any photos like this. All the pictures that I have are of the children or family photos but there’s none of just me.
I like that the pictures show different parts of my personality, different sides of who I am and most of the sides, you don’t really get to see very often, that sometimes I forget about. I see memories from different times in my life that I think of when I look at those pictures. They are a reminder that I’m not just the mom and the wife, but somebody else that kind of got lost along the way. I can pass the pictures down to my kids. I want them to see that there’s another side too. They might not get it now but maybe when they’re adults they’ll get it.
I look beautiful. I love the way I look in the pictures. I really like my smile. I’d forgotten that I really like my smile and just seeing the pictures kind of reminded me. I don’t know how but somewhere along the way I forgot and so it was nice to see it again. When I look at the pictures, I see more than a mom, I see the person I kind of remember being before kids. I see me. It’s how I want to see myself, it’s how I envision my best self looking which is not how I feel everyday. It helps me to remind myself of who I am, who maybe I want to be on a daily basis, my best self.
It showed me a part of myself that I never see in my mind and that was really emotional. I think I have to process this and I really just want to spent time looking at myself—really looking into myself, the part of me that was captured that I haven’t looked at in a long time. The longer I look at the pictures, the more I see so I’m getting to know myself. I’m learning about who that ‘me’ is. The experience has been really incredible. It’s not about the superficial, the makeup, the hair, the clothing. It got down to that person in there and for that, it’s been a really memorable and important moment.
It’s a good feeling looking at the pictures. There’s a lot of beauty that I don’t always see in myself… When I told my daughter that I was having this photo session, her immediate reaction was to ask for one of the prints to hang in her room which really struck me. Sometimes you forget that’s important to your kids and that they see you through the lens of that love and relationship that you have and they cherish it and they can have something physical to remind them of that. Not just pictures of me and my kids, or the kids by themselves or family, but having the picture of just their mom.